CEO. High Priestess
Divination, Demonomancy, Necromancy
I grew up in a divided family, with an anti-religion atheist father and a born-again Christian mother. When I was ten my mother remarried to my extremely studied and devout Catholic-gone-Protestant-conservative stepfather. Before the remarriage god, faith, and Jesus were never topics of discussion in my house so I was relatively free to question and explore my own idea of divinity. The only exposure I had in religion until the age of ten was the occasional Mass when I stayed the night at my friend’s house. I learned the Lord’s Prayer and said it at bedtime with her, prayed at night for god to bless my family and friends. I often found myself saying “now what”, or “is that it?”, and wondering what gave one person authority to speak to God for me. Most importantly I was upset to not get a wafer like my friend did at communion.
I was always intrigued by the Occult in some fashion. I made “potions” when I was still in elementary school and had a fascination with witches. It wasn’t until middle school I quickly found out it was something you could actually practice. My first book on Magick was by a popular Neopagan author which my father had bought for me during my weekend visit to his house. I read it from cover to cover trying to wrap my head around its new and intriguing concepts which reassured me that magick was in the heart and mind if only you truly believe.
My journey in the occult has been one of learning, struggle, success, and mistakes. I converted to the study and practice of Witchcraft in later part of the year 2000. It was child’s play at that time but as I delved deeper into the current I became more aware of the forces around me and my own potential to control them. I walked this path alone for most of my early years and quickly learned the right and wrong way to do things.
It wasn’t until 2005 when I took my first community class on Magick, ran by a local Wiccan Priestess, that I was able to see some of my novice mistakes. After so long I began to crave more: more knowledge, more power. I started learning Ceremonial evocation, pulling Astral beings into full manifestation before me. I was also pulled in several directions at once trying to guide myself through the perils of the unknown. I was bound to get lost along the way. It was through my wrong turns that I was able to gather so much knowledge of the different currents of magick and eclectic belief. I abandoned mainstream Paganism and converted to Luciferianism in 2008, and was ordained a couple years after that.
Like many who are drawn to alternative religions I was haunted for most of my life by demons and undead beings that manifested in the most ghoulish and disturbing figures before my eyes. Unlike many, however, there came a point where the flirtation and fear I had of the “dark side” turned in to confrontation, tireless study, terrified and frantic exorcisms in the middle of the night, and then finally acceptance. Acceptance of their presence and a willingness to listen to them because They were the creatures seeking to teach me. They were my Nightmares personified in all their glorious horror, waiting for me to surrender myself fully to the night and find peace in darkness that was handed to me. I was meant to be theirs, and in order to control them you had to confront, acknowledge and embrace them.
You will never progress, overcome, and command the legions if you cannot look your own demons in the eye and declare yourself as their Sovereign Ruler.
My greatest joys in the Occult, as one who walks with the Spirits and serves my mortal community, is to recognize that fear in others. The Children of the Night, awakening them to their full potential, walking with them as a Sister and open their eyes to their own reality. I strive to give them the tools to conquer all who oppose them. I truly believe if they haunt you they are calling you. You must answer or be tormented evermore.